Things are going by so quickly right now!  It's already March.  This month is mine and Brandon's last "month-versary."  Next month, we'll have been together for 1 year already!  However, that special day in our relationship will probably be spent with me driving to Plainfield to see him on his lunch break because it's a Wednesday.  His days off are going to be used for other special things down the road, like my graduation!  I graduate in 74 days.  I certainly have a lot of work to do before then, which maybe I should be doing that rather than blogging.  :)

B had his wisdom teeth taken out on Friday.  Please pray for his recovery.  Today was the day to start back to the regular routine for him.  I can't believe we're both so close to being done for the semester.  He's done so well.  I'm going to publicly praise him by saying he's doing such a good job in school this semester!  I am very proud of his grades and study habits.

The Mini-Marathon is in like 59 days!  I set goals (like trying to finish in under 2 hours).  Then, I don't actually work to try to achieve them.  Well, I'm working at it now.  I have a game plan, which involves a gym membership, running outside, eating a lot of food, exercising 5 days a week, getting B a bike, early morning, and taking long walks.  It'll work, really.  Plus, this will be my 5th half marathon.  By this point, I know there's going to be pain.  I ask myself, "Why?"

Well, there's what's going on in my life right now.  I must go do homework now...or eat.  :)

Reader:

It certainly is hard to focus on the PRESENT when all you want to do is think about the FUTURE.  And now, since I'm in a turning point in my life, I often find myself thinking about the PAST.  Did I make the wrong decisions?  Of course, my head knowledge is telling me that I didn't because God is sovereign over my life, and everything that has happened has been a part of His providential care over me.  My heart is really struggling with this, though.  [My advisor at CBC would tell me not to seperate the head and the heart, or to call them different names, or something like that.  Dang it, maybe I haven't learned anything in 3 years...]

Maybe it's because I want to avoid the PRESENT, like I wish it wasn't really happening.  I don't want to deal with homework.  I'm graduating in May.  Who needs homework??  I'm tired of mending relationships.  Or trying to build relationships.  In my mind, I've been telling myself that I'm not going to be talking to most of these people after I graduate...unless I'm the one calling them.  It's even getting hard for me to be intentional with my relationships at church, knowing I'm moving back to Shelby County; however, I'm still going to be attending in Carmel.  It's a Bible-preaching church, and I get to worship with Brandon, which is important for us.  Speaking of Brandon, he and I are learning what it really takes to be in a biblical relationship - work.  It's certainly not all surprise dates, flowers, and smiles.  I wish we could fast forward to those times. 

Or maybe I could just wish for the PRESENT time to go by faster.  Older people often tell you not to wish your time away because you'll wish you had it back.  Yeah, I think I'll be like that, too, so I take back my wish.

Writing is so very therepeutic for me.  The actually writing helps me get my thoughts out.  The re-reading helps me realize how silly I am.  So why blog publicly?  I don't know.  You get to see I'm a real person, with real problems.  And with the exception of Brandon, I don't really have anyone else to talk to right now, except the worldwide web.  That man is [one of] my best friends, but sometimes our gender differences get in the way.

Tomorrow is a new day.  Praise the Lord "tomorrow" is in 45 minutes!  Lord-willing, I'll be bringing in the 28th sleeping.  It's a fresh start.  A new week.  Exercise.  50 degree weather.  Homework.  Scheduling.  Grocery Shopping.  My Boyfriend.  Reading.

Lord, I can't go on without You. 

Dear Reader:

I am actually liking starting out like this.  It reminds me of "Kitty" in Anne Franks' diary.  If I could have seen one more thing in Germany, I wish it would have been the Annex.

Weekends usually seem more stressful than the weekdays; however, this past one was the complete opposite.  I think it was because it actually felt like the start of my break.  As a retail worker, the 2 months before Christmas and the days following it are very busy, which equals no rest for me.  Pile traveling on top of that and I was to the point of exhaustion.  Brandon and I did make it through our first holiday season together, so that is something to rejoice in.  I guess the "holidays" do continue until February for both of us due to a zillion birthdays.  OK, so maybe it's not over.

The weekend started with my mom's birthday, which we traditionally celebrate at Olive Garden.  It was so good to spend time with my family.  How blessed am I to be close to my sister, have my parents married for 25 years, and have a good relationship with each member of my family??  I got some extra time with Steph as she both picked me up at my apartment and brought me back.  Saturday brought a trip to the West Side for Brandon needed his mail from his parent's house.  I'm not sure if I could ever make enough trips over there to actually know where I'm going.  That area is basically Brandon's childhood playground, so he takes me to see something new each time.  We spent the afternoon on a 4-mile walk through White River Park.  We talked about anything and everything.  We didn't even have to talk to enjoy just spending time together and admiring God's creation.  I don't know how many times I thanked him for taking that walk with me.  I am so silly in thinking that he was bored with it!  I'm dating an Eagle Scout [if you can be proud of my accomplishments, then i can be proud of yours].  Because Brandon and I are so cool, we ended the day by grocery shopping.  :)  We take whatever chance we get to spend time together.

I do look forward to what this year has in store for our relationship.  It'll be fun... and hard.  We have many struggles and covet any advice given to us.